Yeah well today wasn't so great. All those meetings are really wearing me down and I haven't even started going to the meetings for AA yet... BLAH. She made it so much better. Just seeing her sweet beautiful face, kissing those lips... god, I'm speechless. so completely at a loss for how astounded I am that no matter how SHITTY I'm feeling, she can always bring me peace. So can always calm me down, fix my insides, I've never met anyone so caring. She knew without even asking me that I just wanted to be near her, she knew that I just wanted to be touched by her and she did that, FOR ME she did that. She knows me so well, I'd go to the ends of the earth for her. She'll never understand how wonderful she makes me feel. I hate saying these words over and over again because they're always the same. I'm going to read the dictionary so that I can learn more words to tell her how I feel. What a FUCKING NUT I AM!!! lol. I'd read the GODDAMN DICTIONARY for her, but hey that should show my complete and TOTAL love and OBSESSION for her. She's more than I could have ever hoped for, I pray to God or WHOEVER that she never leaves me... I'm the only reason she's alive.